it’s about 1 am now. i woke up overheating and unable to fall back asleep maybe an hour after i actually went to bed. i said my peace to deerboi before i did. since ive now deleted my telegram i sent it over discord. basically explained he’s beautiful and amazing but im not going to… Read More

im pretty sure at this point that history is repeating itself. call me emotarded but i genuinely don’t think im meant for a partner. my first one was absolutely amazing until she moved and became something completely different then who i remember. in the couple of times i have talked to her since then, she… Read More

well im not sure what to do anymore besides just try to force myself to go full lone wolf. as cringe as that is. i made the mistake of asking deerboi about a relationship and what he thought. he said he didnt want to commit to anyone and vice versa because he wanted to do… Read More

I can safely say that the shit with her is done. And Kaizen. And I think its time that I put both of these stories in their spot, tucked away in a locked chest somewhere in my mind and in my life. I want to end the bickering I have with these two in my… Read More