well to start off, I did write something on the 24th which has appeared to fail to actually save. first time I’ve seen that happen.

second, I’m back to just being a lone wolf. I don’t have hopes for any future partner and I don’t want to look. I can’t not think with my dick it seems and even the people around and the ones I talk to are either obviously not a good fit or no way its happening. not that I like everyone, I’m very picky, but the ones that I do like its just…ugh.

I’m not even sure if what I am picky about really constitutes that label. don’t get me wrong, I don’t wanna fuck every tom, dick, and harry, but more my checklist kinda goes like this

• keeps care of themselves
• slim (more points to you if you were big and had bettered yourself)
• cute
• wanting to explore but also okay with whatever. kinda like you dont mind doing hikes and trips but its not something you need to do all the time, you can relax at home too
• independent (maybe, I don’t blame you either for staying with your parents in this shit economy but just at least make some effort if you aren’t already to get a job or get certified for stuff)
• think for yourself. something that drives me nuts if you cant and most likely an immediate no if you don’t.
• kind and respectful, understanding to what may happen during the highest and lowest points.
• keeps that gay shit under wraps when we are out and about. I don’t mind date nights and all but for the love of all that is, don’t fucking troon out or try to wear skirts in public like you’re fighting the patriarchy.
• reserved personality. I don’t mind someone a little outgoing but I don’t need you to be talking about our sex life with every dumbass or saying how you *need* to show off and I don’t like you being you if that’s the case
• willing to share chores and tasks. I don’t mind one of us doing housecare one day and the other doing it the next, but don’t make a goddamned mess and then just not clean it up for hours.
• not having an obsessive need to fuck everyone or misunderstanding of your emotions (in a way) and not taking help
• closed minded (kinda). listen to what you may be presented but don’t shut it down because you heard different and they must be right at all times

I think that’s mostly it. I guess kinky is a bonus and all and I’m not huge on looks really, but I just want someone similar enough to me that were compatible (and maybe even do projects together) but not so much that you’re like a dog waiting from your next command from me.

I need to finish this shower, this water tank doesn’t last long…