woke up about 4 in the morning today, was unable to fall back asleep… my mind begins to run wild without anything to do. If I am trying to fall back asleep, I need something to focus on to begin dreaming. I scan through my memories, my imagination…and the depths below of suppressed things… I… Read More

things have been relatively stable. I have mostly been working at the main job, putting server work to the side as its driving me insane. something this evening although has me in a curious frenzy. I heard a close friend is still keeping tabs on Kaizen…and he’s not doing well. It’s a restart of her… Read More

I just woke up…not in the best mood. I had a dream that mixed in with lots of other items I’ve been doing, so it was a little off…but basically it started very well. I was in a corporate building. A beautiful one with large windows, I think some Christmas decor out, a unifi network… Read More

its been some time since i came back on here. theres really not much to say other then the sexual drive is down, and it doesnt feel supressed. that and i dont really know still what i like and dont like. or if i like anyone for that matter. i dont believe it should be… Read More