The more I focus on trying to quit porn and go back to just imagination and fantasies…the better it seems to set me off. Waking up today I had deerboi on my mind…not just sex but holding him close, waking up next to him in bed, laying on his chest as he gently caressed my back…all wonderful thoughts I can only wish cone true.

I may want to consider writing up full summary pages of my issues and solutions I’ve found, more to help those who are in need of assistance, the solution they need.

Meanwhile though…im gonna ride that high of dreaming of an amazing life with him…