well, nightfall has come again. i can’t stay up late…but it feels as if i didnt do enough. yet, thinking about recently…

i’ve done a lot. and i should commemorate myself for it. at least let up a bit and understand that not all deadlines can be reached some days, but that i should continue to push without drilling myself into the ground.

baby steps…i’ve successfully constructed a Kubernetes cluster using two bare metal systems and two Direct Attach Storage devices using ZFS on RAIDZ6(or Z5, dont remember), setup Longhorn data replication, got everything restored from backup (and successfully set it up before that, had no issues getting back online aside from figuring out what im doing), gotten a better understanding as to who I am as a person and what i want…and lots more.

every day is a new challenge i learn and grow from. and i provide this…journal if you will…as a resource not only for myself, but for close friends to understand who i am truly, for randoms to learn from my mistakes, and for anyone else looking to take benefit in watching me fail and try again.

everything can be learned from (that’s not proper English but you can fight me) and i choose to take as much as i can from every event each day. i want to learn, grow, do better…not for myself…really not at all for me but rather my future partner, my future company, and those who rely on me each day to get the job done.

now my new goals are to get my ass in gear for work. i need to start refining how i think and do things as it’s beginning to negatively affect how i do my work on my main job. there are some people i may not agree with but i dont always have a say in things. i will announce what i believe I am seeing, good or bad, but it should be up to those above me in the chain of command to say what should and shouldn’t be done. i don’t agree with following things mindlessly but i also don’t know everything. i am not our customer. i am not our lead. i should suggest and do as I am needed, improve where and what i can, and take lead as an example for those looking up to me.

eventually, i’ll have my own say in things – but currently, this is the stage to learn. it’s not shut up and follow orders, but i dont need to be aggressive with everything i dont agree with.

learn, grow, and mature. it’s the stepping stones to a lasting and solid career (along with many other fields in life)