Well after going to bed, it appears something is blocking part of the memories and thoughts I had last night…

I remember it wasn’t a good night and I was almost craving to be used by random men. Now…I cant get excited unless its deerboi. Something tells me if im not sleeping enough I mine as well be drunk.

Part of the reason I don’t drink alcohol either. I don’t want to let my guard down, make bad decisions, or otherwise fuck something up…

I’ll need to make note of that…but that means no more long coding nights either. I cant trust myself to be loyal after 16-18+ hours of no sleep. Im still debating if I even want to allocate some more money towards maybe getting deerboi some more stuff. Or if I even want to bother him.

Nevertheless…good to know. That work trip i need to make sure I’m in bed at reasonable times and if not, I should find a backup plan. Something to prevent me from making bad choices….