putting this in notes only because i think its something important to add but also seems repetitive. dont know.

it appears that today i cannot function at all, period.

i’m thinking about all three of them. her, kaizen, and deerboi. and others. others ive hurt. others ive had hookups with. others that thought i was theirs because they got too attached to me despite us two not knowing each other.

and with too many things to think on, no emotions are being processed…but its kicking my ass into high gear.

many ideas are flowing through my head for my projects. im not sure what happened to cause any of this. but it still hurts none the less. not as much, but i still worry every day about all of them.

call it weird but i dont care about whether or not im with them. i care that they’re okay and not in harms way.

and with my luck, id be the one to unintentionally change that with a mistake of mine…