I almost just blacked out. I think I managed to deprave myself of oxygen which seems to get even worse in a steam-filled shower. this was a bit different though, I don’t lose my vision.

doing the deed in the shower, and after finishing i lost my breath and couldn’t regain it. A couple seconds later, I had began getting what looked like liquid spills over my vision but it was just black. unrendered parts of my view.

before I knew it I was about to lose balance so I sat for a second, I was taking deep breaths, and finally I recollected myself.

I’m not sure why it went to this level…sure I lose my breath doing that sometimes (standing in the shower doing the deed) and after finishing i do hold my breath for a second, but I’ve never teetered on the edge of passing the fuck out.

The thoughts of lust once again came over me. That night in Vegas. That same night that continues to scare me, I still think about from time to time in a lustful manner.

So I think at this point, I need to continue to monitor my vitals but also lock away those memories for good. They’re dangerous and tempting, and I can’t have my roommates rescuing me from the shower after falling like an old man with cum all over him.

I don’t want to blow this out of proportion because I think it’s me overthinking, so going to mark this down as nothing more then “came too hard”.

The rest of my body remains in a high stress state, as usual.